I have always been a spiritual person. I always used to like to believe in things like angels, hoped that there was a God, loved Crystals, enjoyed going to Psychics and getting readings and I remember wafting burned sage around the house at some point to try and clear out any negative energies that may have been in the house. It was around this time that I became a Christian in 2018 and up until then I had quite some interesting moments.
For instance, I had a strange encounter when I was a teenager in which I was on holiday and I saw what appeared to be a spirit or a ghost. I was in bed but wide awake, and as I looked across the room there was what I could only describe as a ghostly figure dressed in clothes from a different time, like a roman soldier. I closed my eyes and blinked several times as I couldn’t belive my eyes but there it was still, only half way across the room walking towards the window. I still think it’s crazy what I saw but It confirmed any questions I had about that sort of thing.
Becoming a Christian
As I stated earlier I became a Christian in 2018. The lead up to this was an interesting one, and it all started in around 2016. I recieved a message on facebook from my birth fathers sister who unbeknown to me had been searching for me for quite a long time and it just so happened that the day she found me on facebook, I had put one of my childhood photos as my profile picture on there which she recognised me from.
I was so surprised to hear from her but it was lovely to chat to her and hear how she was trying to look for me for sometime and things. I began to chat to and get to know her more, then she said the most incredible thing. That she wanted to meet and fly me out to Maryland in Amercian where her and some of my family lived. So I flew out to meet and stay with her and met some of my dad’s family that I’d never met and I had the nicest time meeting and getting to know everyone. Anyway, it was during this time that they wanted to introduce me to their culture and be part of their life, so they took me to church and told me about Christianity.
I was never religious growing up. But like alot of people, I was told about God at a young age like when I was at Primary or junior school and I was aware about Christianity, sang the hyms in school assembly’s etc. I wasn’t really interested in being a Christian when my family in America told me about faith and Christianity and took me along to church, but I did find it Interesting learning about some of their culture. I was struggling with my health at this point and had several health conditions undiagnosed. My mental health also started to get slightly worse around this time, so I wasn’t feeling particularly great.
Something which I noticed was just how nice the Christians were at their church. They were just so sweet and welcoming and in general I got this vibe from Christians there. My family also did things like stand up and pray for me at the church and took me to the front of the church to do this. I didn’t quite know what was going on but I know they had good intentions for me and their faith obviously meant alot to them.
Then, something a little bit surreal happened. Whilst they were praying, I remember the sudden feeling of my heavy and clouded head lifting, like someone had just scooped all of that depression away. It was very surreal, and I remember thinking did that just happen? I couldn’t believe the difference in the way my head fealt and I didn’t tell one of my Aunties until we were in the car in the way back to hers.
It was then I started to get curious and watched things like the film The Passion of the Christ, read bits of the bible and started to pray sometimes. As I said I didn’t really know what I was doing but I just went with it. I first started going to church in 2018 and this is where my faith started to grow. I also fealt a sense of peace which fealt amazing.
Faith has done alot to me. It’s helped me with lots of things such as not letting things get to me as much like negativity, anger, upset, worry and how I deal with things. It’s given me hope, peace, strength, comfort and joy and has been a beacon of light for me and got me through some tough times such as when I dealt with mental health and went in to hospital back in 2020 for that and my thyroid.
Other things
I’ve really taken an interest in yoga in the past year, and yoga is sometimes considered quite a spiritual practice with people including it with things like meditation and sound baths. I haven’t tried meditation yet, but this is something that I am interested in. For now I’m just enjoying the way yoga makes me me feel, the improvement in my suppleness and flexibility and the little bit of progress in my flows that I’m seeing.
I also want to start getting a few crystals in again. Not loads, but just a few. I remember a few years back putting a piece of clear quartz on my head when I had a stonking headache, and after a while of having the quartz on my forehead the headache subsided. It worked. Whether or not any other of those beautiful little crystals out there do anything, but I now know that the quartz does do something.
I want to spend more time in nature and have been to a couple of beautiful parks in London in the past month. I’ve began to really appreciate nature and the outdoors and would love to do something like hiking in the future. I do alot of walking anyway so this would be good for me.
Being spiritual comes natural to me. I love being a spiritual person and I don’t think that will ever change. It’s part of who I am and I embrace that side of me.
I hope you’re all embracing the nice weather at the moment and getting to go outside and do things like have picnics and going to lovely parks or the beach. I hope you enjoyed this blog post. Until next time.
Natalie
